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Re: WWN's Topic of Depressing Things and ANGST

Post by Linkman » Sat Jun 25, 2016 3:11 am

I was actually wondering where you were, St Mobius.

Yes, Sven is correct. Seek help, it's not shameful and it will improve your life.
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Re: WWN's Topic of Depressing Things and ANGST

Post by MobiusReactor » Sat Jun 25, 2016 3:39 am

I figured someone would make a suggestion like that, and while I know it's most likely the best course of action, my problem with it is that I find it very difficult to talk about crumpets like this in person. Whenever I try I just get emotional and struggle to vocalise my thoughts and feelings properly. I haven't even spoken to my girlfriend about it in person, only ever via text, because I know I'd just end up getting upset. I imagine it'd be even worse with a complete stranger...
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Re: WWN's Topic of Depressing Things and ANGST

Post by Linkman » Sat Jun 25, 2016 3:41 am

A complete stranger, yes, but one that is a trained professional in dealing with people and problems exactly like the ones you've mentioned. He or she will have the best chance at dealing with your reluctance to open up.
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Re: WWN's Topic of Depressing Things and ANGST

Post by Sven » Sat Jun 25, 2016 4:02 am

You posted a giant dump to a bunch of people on the internet. I've done the same before here. The only 'proper' thing to say is to get whatever professional help you can afford depending on how your country's medical system works.

I had the support of my immediate family when I dealt with my problems. I talked with them about the nitty-gritty details of what was going on in my life and got things back on track. For me, that was enough. If I didn't have that kind of support I'd talk to a psych.
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Re: WWN's Topic of Depressing Things and ANGST

Post by ThunderWalker » Sat Jun 25, 2016 4:10 am

Indeed. I have been looking for professional help in the past as well for various issues, though that was not really depression but PTSS.


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Re: WWN's Topic of Depressing Things and ANGST

Post by MobiusReactor » Sat Jun 25, 2016 4:14 am

Damn you and your logic, Linkman! :P

Cheers for the advice, I guess I'll talk to a couple of close friends about it in more detail, and if it keeps getting worse I'll go speak to my GP about it. That'll be an interesting experience, it's been about a decade since I last had to go see a doctor, pretty sure my previous GP is retired these days.
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Re: WWN's Topic of Depressing Things and ANGST

Post by HPD » Wed Jul 13, 2016 4:18 am

Ugh, sliced the tip off my little finger while cutting onions. Fortunately it wasn't bad (only skin really) and seemed to be able to reattach the piece before bandaging it up. It seems to stick for now, let's hope it heals ok...
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Re: WWN's Topic of Depressing Things and ANGST

Post by Linkman » Wed Jul 13, 2016 9:57 am

Sven wrote:mom's losing her vision in an eye if they can't get a doc in ~24 hours or so to do an operation.

i'm cautiously optimistic it'll all work out.
Did this work out fine? :(
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Post by Sven » Wed Jul 13, 2016 10:35 am

She saw some specialist pretty much right away. Which was cool, the dude did his job and saved her vision.

Tricky parts now are basically dealing with her workplace requesting a silly amount of paper work that the surgeon is almost definitely not gonna fill out. It also takes some people up to a year for everything to heal from the surgery she did, so idk how that's gonna work out.

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Post by daisy » Thu Jul 21, 2016 4:13 am

Obviously this isn't anywhere near as serious, but I decided to have an eye test pretty much out of boredom. Turns out I need glasses lol. Last time I had them checked like 5 years ago I had perfect 20/20. I'm picking them up tomorrow.

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Post by Linkman » Thu Jul 21, 2016 10:23 am

MobiusReactor wrote:Damn you and your logic, Linkman! :P

Cheers for the advice, I guess I'll talk to a couple of close friends about it in more detail, and if it keeps getting worse I'll go speak to my GP about it. That'll be an interesting experience, it's been about a decade since I last had to go see a doctor, pretty sure my previous GP is retired these days.
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Re: WWN's Topic of Depressing Things and ANGST

Post by MobiusReactor » Fri Jul 22, 2016 12:49 am

Never did get around to seeing my GP because things picked up after my last couple of posts, I posted when I was feeling particularly low, but if I start going back downhill again I'll be sure to do so.

Things have been quite a bit better over the last few weeks, been seeing my other half more often which has been helping a lot. Going camping down at Alton Towers with her and another couple of friends next week, so it'll be good to get away from work and have a couple of days to just chill out.

Thanks again for the support.
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Post by MobiusReactor » Sat Jul 23, 2016 9:30 am

On a completely unrelated note, I took a shortcut while walking home on thursday night. Shortcut involved jumping down a 6ft wall, and I managed to fudge up my landing. Felt fine for the most part at the time, after sitting for a couple of minutes I was able to walk the remaining 3 miles home. Turns out that wasn't a good idea, who could have possibly guessed? Long story short, I can't put any weight at all on my heel. I still have complete movement in my ankle, can press any part of my foot with next to no pain, and can put a reasonable amount of weight on the ball of my foot with little problem, but standing properly hurts like hell. Just in time for my holiday next week, how wonderful.
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Re: WWN's Topic of Depressing Things and ANGST

Post by MobiusReactor » Fri Aug 26, 2016 9:11 am

This isn't necessarily a depressing topic post, as such, but there's no WWN's Topic of Intermediate Things and Mediocrity, so I guess I'll just put it here as an update for anyone who's interested. Plus, typing up my thoughts like this somewhat cathartic.

Had another couple of occasions since my last post where I've ended up upset and emotional despite knowing that the reasons why are illogical and complete crumpets. The one in particular that comes to mind, I ended up in tears because my lack of self-confidence and insecurity lead me to question why my other half is actually with me. Thankfully she was very understanding about the situation (being someone who suffers from depression herself) and managed to snap me out of it. She's really been quite amazing throughout this, I can't thank her enough for her support.

The incident highlights pretty well the trust issues that my ex was kind enough to leave me with. My girlfriend made a stupid comment at one point about getting to spend more time with a guy she frequently plays Monster Hunter with when she moves back to uni[1], but my ex flirted with and wanted to fudge everyone in her MMO guild. They all thought she was single, and I was too stupid to see the fact that she hadn't corrected them as a red flag. I stayed in that relationship far longer than I should have, even after seeing the warning signs. It wasn't good for me emotionally or financially, I was just too blinded by my emotions to see just how bad things were. As a result of that catastrophe of a relationship (which I don't hold fully responsible for most of my current issues, but it most likely is a large part of it), there's that tiny part at the back of my mind that keeps whispering "what if?". My current girlfriend has zero interest in the guy she was joking about. I know she has zero interest, and was just trying to wind me up, but that tiny voice is still there, and it makes me kind of uncomfortable whenever I think about it. I trust her completely, but I still can't get rid of those negative thoughts.

After the recent incident, she's now under strict orders to make me to go see my GP if she ever thinks my depression is getting any worse. I should really go anyways, but I'm a coward and won't unless someone forces me to.


[1] Not really looking forward to her moving away, it's only about an hour and a half to drive there to visit, but between my uni timetable, hers, and my part-time job, finding a suitable opportunity to do so is gonna be tough. I'm well aware that this is still a much better situation than a lot of other people have, a friend of mine lives and works in South Korea and goes several months without seeing his other half, but he's much less insecure about himself than I am.
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Re: WWN's Topic of Depressing Things and ANGST

Post by DieselPheonix » Sat Aug 27, 2016 11:24 am

Which MH is it? 4U and Gen have online multiplayer.

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Post by MobiusReactor » Sun Aug 28, 2016 3:53 am

Gen. The point being that they currently play online a lot, but when they go back to uni, she'll be able to spend more time with him in person instead.
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Re: WWN's Topic of Depressing Things and ANGST

Post by Xenesis » Thu Sep 08, 2016 2:00 am

So I may have just spent my ~50th hour straight awake through no desire of my own.

Insomnia this awful only comes ones every few years. But ugh.
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Re: WWN's Topic of Depressing Things and ANGST

Post by monkymeet » Thu Sep 08, 2016 12:41 pm

that pretty bad

have you seen a doctor about that?
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Post by Xenesis » Thu Sep 08, 2016 1:40 pm

monkymeet wrote:that pretty bad

have you seen a doctor about that?
When I was a teenager, yeah.

It's generally too infrequent to be a real problem, this time was just really bad, probably because I had a migraine last week.
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Post by monkymeet » Thu Sep 08, 2016 4:16 pm

welp hope you feel better xen!
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Re: WWN's Topic of Depressing Things and ANGST

Post by Sniffit II » Fri Sep 09, 2016 5:00 am

Hell, insomnialand ent fun. Hope you sleep soon.
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Re: WWN's Topic of Depressing Things and ANGST

Post by scraggypunk » Fri Sep 09, 2016 8:15 am

you're a doctor now
prescribe yourself ambien
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Post by Xenesis » Fri Sep 09, 2016 11:33 am

Yeah, I ended up crashing last night (finally) and slept for a solid twelve hours.

Feel significantly better now.
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Post by daisy » Sat Oct 08, 2016 8:19 am

My cat was put to sleep earlier :(

She was on my lap when I made my first post here.

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Re: WWN's Topic of Depressing Things and ANGST

Post by scraggypunk » Sat Oct 08, 2016 9:17 am

very sad
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Re: WWN's Topic of Depressing Things and ANGST

Post by MobiusReactor » Tue Nov 01, 2016 10:36 am

Uni is currently stressing me the fudge out, I have way too much work and too little time. Already screwed up one assignment that should have been a walk in the park by leaving it too late and having to pull an all-nighter, got another assignment due tomorrow, got some complicated stuff involving quantum computation to figure out for my 4th year project by friday, got the scope and outline plan for said project due next monday, and got a group assignment for another class to start working on as well. Starting to wish I hadn't let a friend talk me out of packing in my part time job, could do with that time for uni.

Also my grandad's been in hospital for the last couple of months, his condition has deteriorated considerably, and it seems like it's only a matter of time before he passes away. Already accepted that it's the most likely outcome, but it still kinda sucks.
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Re: WWN's Topic of Depressing Things and ANGST

Post by Linkman » Thu Nov 03, 2016 3:56 am

Sorry to hear that Mobius =/

My left eye has been twitching a lot these last few days. Some research/consulting with doctor friends indicates it's probably stress but it might also be low vitamin B12. Started taking vitamin pills :/
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Re: WWN's Topic of Depressing Things and ANGST

Post by Hexagon » Thu Nov 03, 2016 7:18 am

I have returned from the dead to say that you probably don't have B12 deficiency, mostly because I am a big fan of not wasting money on vitamins

also if you think you legit have a B12 deficiency, unless you're a strict vegan or just not eating, you should probably see an actual doctor
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Post by Linkman » Thu Nov 03, 2016 2:00 pm

I think so too DC, I figured it couldn't hurt :/ money already spent. Might be useful for something.
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Post by Linkman » Thu Nov 03, 2016 3:03 pm

I mean it can't hurt as long as I have healthy liver/kidneys right?
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Post by Xenesis » Thu Nov 03, 2016 4:59 pm

Linkman wrote:I mean it can't hurt as long as I have healthy liver/kidneys right?
Nah, you'll just have very expensive urine.
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Post by Dragonite » Thu Nov 03, 2016 11:44 pm

I've been taking vitamin D off and on during the winter months though. That one depends more on where you live though, it's easy to get a sunlight deficiency during winter in the Netherlands, but I suppose not as easily in the south.

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Post by Hexagon » Fri Nov 04, 2016 3:44 am

yeah I probably shouldn't talk too much smack about supplements given that probably literally everyone at my school is vitamin D deficient

I was right on the border between low and normal a few years ago and was so proud that I somehow didn't manage to cross what I considered an objective threshold of being a total shut-in
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Post by Xenesis » Fri Nov 04, 2016 11:28 am

Mm, vitamin D.

My natural absorption/diet combination for Vitamin D is so low that I got diagnosed with an acute deficiency in my early 20s.
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Post by Linkman » Fri Nov 04, 2016 2:59 pm

TIL WWN needs vitamins
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Re: WWN's Topic of Depressing Things and ANGST

Post by Hexagon » Sat Nov 05, 2016 11:34 pm

or maybe we just need to get out more
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Post by scraggypunk » Sun Nov 06, 2016 12:11 pm

vitamins are good to take even if you are outdoorsy
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Post by Sniffit II » Mon Nov 07, 2016 2:53 am

Bleh. November => sleep forever.
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Post by MysteriousLad » Thu Nov 24, 2016 7:13 am

I need help
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