so yeah i might be failing my first college class this semestershinji wrote:i will not run away
and it's all my fault kinda though it's more that i've been depressed, more than a little bit obsessive, and running off way too little sleep these past few months, getting sick a couple weeks ago was also immensely disruptive. but that still means that it's all my fault because if i was in a more solid state of mind i wouldn't have picked such a stupid thesis for my research paper and i would have remembered to actually do the library research assignment worth 10% of my damn research paper grade and i wouldn't have left it to the last minute out of escapism, ultimately the fault lies in my bad judgement and that just makes it all the worse y'know if it was just something that happened to me that sucked i could say "hey that sucked" but the fact that i let it happen means that i have some character faults
though as i mentioned in the other topic it is shaping up about as good as an ill fated paper can shape up, there's still a good chance i'll fail it, and the guy's syllabus explicitly states that if you fail the paper you fail the class regardless of your other grades.
not to mention my other essay grades aren't great and my participation isn't great because having the night shift on wednesday means i tend to forget to set my alarm wednesday night and there's no way i'm waking up without that alarm so yeah i've missed class a couple times, this just means that my participation grade is not that great so even if somehow i manage to score a D on the paper i might still end up in failing territory
my advice to you all is not to take night shifts if you have a class at say 9:30 because it completely fudge with your sleep schedule the whole week and i dunno i have a hard time functioning when low on sleep
made this topic to counter the other one because i really don't think i have a right to be happy right now
sometimes being depressed is the right state of mind